Tuesday, May 24, 2011

So-Fyh Magazine Online review of Beautiful Series

By Danielle Taylor of So Fyh Magazine Online:

About the Beautiful Series

I enjoyed speaking with talented writer, Ms. Kiexiza Rodriquez from Richmond, Va. She was so delighted to share with So Fyh Magazine Online about her upcoming book series. Kiexiza brings a whole new flavor to the writing style community. This diva will have you trying to take a peek at the next chapter before you finish the first one. Here series is entitled “The Beautiful Series” and introduces you to, Tierra Rodriquez, Aquarian, Sean, Shireece, and Vito who are childhood friends. Together they are a bunch you’re sure to relate to or even know someone just like them.

The first book is named, "Beautiful” which I thinkis well very well written. There is so much going on in this novel, from a rekindled friendship, a love lost, jealousy, betrayal, egos busted, even a life and death struggle, and oh plenty of drama to keep you interested! This book deals with the decisions, triumph and disappointments Tierra and Aquarian must face as they both deal with loss, and while trying to find love. Beautiful answers the answer the question, “how long can we be troubled with our past hurts or even hide skeletons in our closets, before all goes to hell?” It is a good, easy read book and Ms. Kiexiza Rodriquez has something in it that you'll enjoy from the beginning to the end. I would encourage each of you to go ahead and pre-order your copy of this book today. Because once they reach 100, they are gone!    You can order you copy by clicking here> Kiexiza's website

So Fyh Magazine Online would like to say congratulations to Ms. Kiexiza Rodriquez for her contribution to the community and her aid to promote literacy. She admits as an author, her livelihood depends on avid readers. But, as a mother she believes we all have a responsibility to our youth to help build a love for books, which is why she reads to her children as often as she can and is an example for them by reading often herself.

Ms. Rodriquez has more books in this series coming soon. So be on the lookout for the other 4 book in The Beautiful Series!! Here they are: "BEAUTIFUL" which we have already explored , Beautiful Seduction"now in this book  you will be on the edge as you go into the lives of married couple, Sean and Shireece, with more than a few secrets between them. One thing about keeping secrets it can cost you more than just your life. Find out if they wake up before someone dies.

"Beautiful Innocence"Once again, author Kiexiza Rodriquez has really done a thing on us as she takes us on a journey in the life of Kashia, Aquarian's sister, as she is trying to adjust to her life as a college student and the freedom of it all. No more parents mean No one to control her every move.  How much trouble can a young woman get into in a new city? You’ll have to read to find out.

Just when you think Ms. Rodriquez couldn't possibly pull another rabbit out of the hat, she does, and adds a few more surprises, in the novel, "Beautiful Revelations" - Oh, WOW! Reading is believing, as revelations are revealed you’ll never see coming. The town player let me say Mr. Playboy Vito, himself gets his whole world rocked right off the hinges, and may just have to grow up overnight and a single mother is torn between matters of the heart and her fears that have tormented her entire life. Please don't throw in the preverbal towel just yet, because the great thing about the turning points of The Beautiful Series is that while you're moving on with a new juicy story, you will be keeping up with each and every one of the books and story plots from the books before.  It sets you up for the final novel in this series, sure to be the biggest shocker of them all. So please get ready for this mind blowing novel to do damage!  Beautiful Destructionwith a mind boggling twist you’ll have to READ it to believe! The Beautiful Series, is guaranteed to be well worth your investment. So please, hurry and order book 1 NOW!

Beautiful Me!

Look at me,
Beautifully Powerful
Ambitious me.

Look at the woman
standing here B4 thee


creative, passionate me.
Coming up with quick lines
rhymes, plots
and content your lil mind
knows nothing about...,

Look at the Beautifully,
strong independent me.
making my dreams happen me
doing things my own way me.

may not be where i want
but so far from where
ive been me.
on a never ending track heading up me
never looking back or down me.
there is no retreat,
no surrender

get with the program
since you seem to
repeatedly forget,

Do You See Me?

My head is exploding
My heart's a fire
 im confused
and there seems to be no
end to this endless desire

Do you see me?
The tears i cry
of am i just a waste of your time?
a small
something that just got in ur way?

if a time machine was invented
would you steal
 use it
to erase your
memory of me and you
wash away the stain
of the first time
you said i love you

do you secretly wish you could undo
your memory of me
its all the same
 no matter what i do
in the end
its just a game

i'm still amidst the  rain
turmoil sniffs
its way home,
seas of never ending
twists and turns,
of emotionless
midst, engulfs me
suffocates me

but no calm
i can still feel the rage all around me
and yet,
still you can't see me
cant feel me
dont know me
in a crowd
cant recognize
my voice
don't remember my touch

Life sucks
and i'm strained
i want off this train
please calgone just take me away
let me,
slip beneath your silky bubbles
of X-tacy,
mesmerize me
with the simplistic
nuances of my daily life

distract me
captivate me
reassure me
that somewhere
is looking for someone

then shoot me down
yank me
back into reality

thats what you do!
so i guess you do see me
maybe you see
all im really worth
yet you wont allow me to be free
to achieve all that is within me.


Kiexiza Rodriquez

Monday, May 23, 2011

I am

I am but a broken shatter shallow shell of a soul
Empty, broken, used and abused
thrown to the wolves
forced to fend on ones own
secretly craving the love
that will set me free...,

I am but a humble, nurturing, giving without asking soul
wishing and hopping to get a 10% of what i give
willing to pour out 100% of me into you
remain drained, weak and still come
when again you call my name

I am but one woman,
one soul
on body
one heart
one life

no matter how far down you toss me
throw me step on my neck and curse me
somehow, still i rise to the top
and smile
after a night of angered tearful cries
again like the phoenix from the ash of my past
still i rise.

still i rise,
and just as fast
sink down to oblivion
fetal position embraces me
remembers me instantly
and opens arms wide
calling me home
to a home i have yet to fully know

this is not where i want to be
please set me free
the is an inner me
with a bigger dream
but the darkness
blocks out the light
shuts me in
continues the same ole thing again

i am but one woman
willing to love beyond
all control rhyme or any reason
known to man
yet the Beautiful Mess i am
seems to much for any human man
all that i want
all that i am
all that i seek
is fading beyond my grip with reality
so into the vortex i send my dreams

Kiexiza Rodriquez

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

This Feeling

What is this i'm feeling, this shell that's overcome me
what is this darkness, that's taken hold and wont let go?

What is this cloud, that's trying to engulf my soul
trying to choke me out, and just wont let go

has me crying over, stupid TV shows
commercials, music, and fluffy bears
eyes reddened cant turn away
cant dare

what is this that has, rendered my soul, useless?
im new to this, was on a whole other plan

Where is the sun, that was making a come back
in my emptiness/ Where is its warmth
that had melted the ice cold feeling of nothingness
from my heart. had it all but gone away

wheres my rainbow, i could just about see its
end, Boy, the plans i had
for that pot o gold,
guess you really cant count, on happiness
until it actually arrives
and is it here to stay?

If i cant count on my heart, on my emotions
on this stirring im feeling, in the center
of my soul, what can i count on?

What is this feeling, im feeling
what is this, what is this hollow place
where is my knight, where is my warmth
where is that touch, that sensitive, understanding
this feeling is cold, this feeling is lonely
this feeling,
was all but gone, for some damn reason
now has returned

I need my sun, its rays
to chase this, dreary
darkness away!

Please someone show me the way!
I'm lost, drifting and the darkness
is covering me, controlling me
please shine a light
and help me find my way out!

Kiexiza Rodriquez 2011

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

I'm listening to The1Essence Radio.

I'm listening to The1Essence Radio.

Eating Disorders; a Disease or a Choice?

In February, the Tony n Kie Show,  hosted this HOT TOPIC. It indeed was just that a HOT TOPIC. As many people listened in, chatted in the chat room and listened via phone while Tony and I discussed this widely misconceived topic we thought we'd share what we learned.

What is an eating Disorder?
The National Eating Disorder Org, describes an eating Disorder as this: such as anorexia, bulimia, and binge eating disorder -- includes extreme emotions, attitudes, and behaviors surrounding weight and food issues. Eating disorders are serious emotional and physical problems that can have life-threatening consequences for females and Men. (for more on the signs, symptoms of various E.D. Click HERE)

See many people, maybe even you reading this blog, think that a person who causes themselves to vomit their food or refuses to eat anything but bite sized amounts all day, has to be be doing this willingly. But WHO in their right mind, knowing the damage it can cause, (and some know what they can do to themselves) would do it anyway if it was just that easy to stop and NOT do it?
The sad part is that in our society, if you do not have a PHYSICAL aliment, one that someone can SEE, your actions are easily dismissed as personal choice. Something that can be gotten over with a lil will power and determination. Though at the same time, it is said that someone would have to be crazy  or in  a bad place to do such things to themselves. Kind of a contradictory statement, if you ask me!

Eating Disorders ARE a physical AND an emotional issue! This is just proven fact! True they can begin simply with someones desire to lose weight by dieting. BUT Eating Disorders are far more than mere Dieting. They can kill you! Someone who consumes 700 calorie a day on a quick diet, will likely return to normal eating after the allowed time has passed. These diets always come with warnings labels, that it is NOT safe on a normal basis.They advise what a normal body needs to maintain itself and that the extremeness of the limited caloric intake is NOT recommended for an extensive time frame. In most cases people doing them, are usually looking to jump start their weight loss, get rid of a few extra pounds for a wedding, class reunion etc. Those products are often advertised in such a manner. Most people do not say i'm going to consume 700 calories for the rest of my life. (700 is not a caloric intake for those with an eating disorder it is just a low number used to show extremeness)
Someone who falls into a pattern maybe begin the stages of an eating disorder,and not even realize it. They may suddenly find themselves feeling great, beautiful, handsome at all the remarks they begin to receive as the weight begins to fall off. They may enjoy the way their clothes begin to fit, the added attention from the opposite sex. (and NO E.D. are NOT limited to the Female gender) Before they know it they are eating less and less, for fear to gain one pound of what they have lost back. They begin to exercise more than normal, but to them "IT IS NORMAL." Food becomes their life, and not eating it, becomes an obsession.

The Difference
When you look in the mirror you see your size 10, or 6 maybe even 16. A person with an eating disorder could very well be a size 6 but look in the mirror and see a size 16 looking back at them. No amount of diet, exercise or lack of eating will change that view point of themselves. They can't shake it. No matter what they do they see and Huge person in the mirror.
Think of the images that are shown to us daily. Think of any given moment on TV, a music Video, a movie, a commercial, a book cover? Who are the butt of jokes, who gets the good roles, who has the biggest, sexiest, colorful, selection in the clothing store? What do all the songs say a sexy beautiful woman looks like. What do the ads, TV etc say a handsome, sexy man looks like. Though more women, young girls, teens, fall victim to society's views  doesn't mean that boys don't as well. They do!
Think about your own concept of beautiful and how you speak it when are your children or family. we often say things and don't even realize it. Do you know that diet commercials often show women going from a normal healthy size 10 to a small 2? NOW even a size 10 is fat! Men they usually show obese, large, going thin, in shape muscular.
It's a shame. We tell out children "you don't want to be fat, don't eat that." those lil words stick to them. not saying you want them to be fat, but why not teach and emulate healthy eating, rather than threaten the extra plate of food, will lead to a life of solitude? Why not get your child up and away from the Video game and TV and get out and play with them? there are so many things TODAY, we don't do with our children that our parents used to do with us.

My Story
I can speak from PERSONAL experience and say that some Eating Disorders do not even begin about losing weight at all. Mine began as a way to keep my mother home, around me and my abuser away from me, when she wasn't home. I made myself sick, not to be thin, not to lose weight, i was thin already, but it was a cry for help. Before i knew it though, i had no choice in it. ANYTHING I ate hurt, my stomach was in knots, twisted and the only way to relive it was to rid myself of what was there. IT WAS NOT a Choice, not something that i chose or enjoyed doing. I had not idea of what i was doing to my insides. I didn't know it was  1. harmful, 2. not safe 3. deadly.
When i began to vomit, I was a teenager being abused and it was my way of keeping my mother around. When ever I ate i had to let it out. Seeing as i was taught to eat all my food, that became a problem as well. I would expel my insides to make room for the rest of my plate. I began to have stomach issues and then needed surgery. All the while NOT realizing it was the vomiting that was making me sick. It took me many years to get it under control. The funny thing was that even when i began to open up and tell my doctors, therapist, dentist, no one seemed to concerned about it. Even when i lost 20 pounds in just under two week due to it.
It is still difficult to this day to fight the urge at times. When i'm upset, stressed or overeat. My fiancee, like many people doesn't understand why i do it. I hate when I fail and succumb to the urge, because i know i am letting him down and that the acid that i am forcing back up my throat could rupture and destroy my esophagus. I'm proud of myself, though. I've gone from getting rid of EVERYTHING i eat, right after i eat it, to maybe 1 or two times a month. Now how about that for progress! It doesn't mean though that the other 29 days I'm not tempted. This is like any other emotional, or physical disorder like an alcoholic, you have to live your life resisting temptation. I  had to learn my stressers and to find other ways to unwind. My battle is far from over, but I'm so glad I'm not in the midst of the storm as i used to be.

Listen, Support, Love, Communicate.
I know those sound like easy things to do. But over all you CAN'T make someone stop doing something if they don't want to stop. Think of a drinker, all the yelling and screaming in the world won't make them stop until they are ready. But I'm not saying to sit back and watch your loved ones die either. But know that no amount of bullying, nit picking, arguing, ultimatums, will make a difference, if the person doesn't see that they have a problem and are ready to address it.
You can tell them you love them, you want the best for them. You can let them know that the way they are living is going to hurt their body, whether they realize it or not. You can suggest counseling maybe for YOUR sake not theirs. "will you go with me so that that i can deal with how I feel?" Putting the emphasis on you and off of them.
Interventions can help. It can help to get your loved ones together, to write a letter, to tell the one with the disorder how what they do makes you feel. How scared you are for them, how you miss the person they used to be,  the things they used to do and desire to do.(often times a person will become so obsessed with their food intake, output that it takes over their life, they can't function in "normal" society. Afraid and tired of the looks, stares, comments, questions, they retreat to the comfort of home. recluse)
Know and understand though that, Intervention, love, kind words, as well as yelling screaming, ultimatums, may not work on any level! They may instead no matter how you come, feel attacked, that you don't understand what they are going through, that you are making something out of nothing and judging them.
Which you may know to be false. But they don't!

In the end, unfortunately there is no 100% way, not quick fix, not book with all the correct answers. Even this note is more uniformed information. I can't give you a cure all, to get through to someone who is hurting themselves. But i will say to continue to try and make them aware to see what they are doing to their body and how it is detrimental to their health. It is NOT healthy living or eating.

That in its self is a task.

Over all, they need your LOVE, they need to know that you are there for them. But you need to know and relay to them that you want the best for them and that is, for them to be healthy and alive for a long time. Finding that balance can be hard, and depending on the level and severity of the disorder please please try to get intervention from a professional involved. Eating Disorders like any other disability can unfortunately tear a family apart. I pray that if you are suffering that you won't continue to suffer in silence. Please seek help, please reach out. if you are the loved one or family member, please know i feel for you and your pain and apparent helplessness. Hand in there.

*The above are purely MY Point of View, and is by no means Medical FACT* If you or someone you love has an eating disorder PLEASE talk to your health care professional IMMEDIATELY. help is avail, you are NOT ALONE!
If my story can help, I have no problem sharing. We all have a testimony!

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Kiexiza Rodriquez


Have you ever made a decision that you wish with all you had that you could go back and take back, re-do, start again? Yea, i know you have, we all have at one point in our lives. The bad thing is that there are no do overs. We don't get to rewind time and go back and set it right, now that we know the answers.
What can we do now? Make the best of it? Cry our eyes out? Get pissed yell and scream? Drink ourselves into numbness? NO, i mean yelling may work for a moment and drinking your blues away, well that's just not a good idea either. Now crying I don't see the harm in releasing tension and pain through a few tears, hence the word FEW. But wallowing in self-pity and regret, only lands you on a therapist sofa swallowing med's for depression. 

But to simply say "Just get over it" is heartless and cruel and leaves you with no options as well.
So what does one do?

What can you do NOW, to fix where you went wrong, would be the best question. What can you do about your circumstances as they are NOW, not looking back at what could of, should of been, but what IS and working with what you have. Sure we all could have paid those bills on time, instead of buying that new outfit. We could have said we were sorry, and not let that person walk out of our lives. We could have reacted differently to that situation. But, the fact is we didn't! We did what we did and now we are here. So all we can deal with is the here and the now.

Look at your situation and decide what you can do about your NOW, to change it and make it better. Stop regretting yesterday and feeling sorry for yourself and get up and make a change. THINGS WILL NEVER CHANGE UNLESS YOU DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT! So do things different. Make a phone call and apologize. It may be too late to get them back, but just say it anyway. Catch up on those bills and stop buying what you want, and learn to survive on ONLY what you need for a while. Learn how to calm down, how to take a step back before you react. See where it is you want to be and make a plan as to how and what you need to do to get there and WORK THAT PLAN.

No I'm not saying it will be easy. I'm not saying it's so simple as to make a plan and bang it will happen. Things will happen, life happens. There will be complications, drama, mishaps, setbacks, but stand fast and hold your ground. Remember where you came from and where you are trying to go. Set your eyes on your prize.

NO Regrets, No Prisoners, Just Accomplishments.  Relish and enjoy even the smallest of Accomplishments for each one brings you closer to completion of the goal you set before you.

Kiexiza Rodriquez
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