Collaboration John Ransom and Kiexiza Rodriquez

J.Ransom Presents
Doctor’s Orders Part 5
(A J.Ransom and Kiexiza Tashua Rodriquez Collaboration)

My mind in space traveling
Thoughts unraveling
In this gravel pit of gargantuan memories that almost make no sense
But I the scent of puzzling intrusion
Of my thoughts through these blues
And I get no help from these boos..

My mind is wasting
investigating the instigation of my negation
for all these seen through my detrimental situations,
I stand to be awakened…

Lights flash of passion to the flickering of a heart drenched by the seas of emotion,
Pardon me for being caught in the moment.

I sat in my chair with my palms in my hand. My eyes watering because I remembered almost everything, key word was almost. I was brought back by one of my last cases or better yet by one of the last transcribed papers I had. I remember it specifically by the crinkles in the paper that was once wet with tears. I had to open my eyes to a reality that caused me to become a doctor in the first place.

My mind is wasting
investigating the instigation of my negation
for all these seen through my detrimental situations,
I stand to be awakened…

Lights flash of passion to the flickering of a heart drenched by the seas of emotion,
Pardon me for being caught in the moment.
My mind in space traveling
Thoughts unraveling
In this gravel pit of gargantuan memories that almost make no sense
But I the scent of puzzling intrusion
Of my thoughts through these blues
And I get no help from these boos..

As I started to read the transcript, the lights flicker.

So please, can you being to explain ?

I was always good.
Always did what i was supposed to.
Mom and dads / perfect lil girl.
Never deviated / from what i knew was right.
Never thought about doing wrong.

So then what happened?

Should of listened to
my instinct,
it said go right,
but excitedly i went the short way home.
Daddy would be there,
i longed to see his face
feel the strength in his arms
know that he was ok.

Why should you have listened?
What is going on is there something that I am missing?

Instead, I'm here, scared, cold and alone.
A simple question, a step too close,
innocent, naive trust.
I guess is to blame.
He seemed so kind, the girl in the picture
he carried, was my age.
Now, I cant stop the tears
that flow from my eyes.

I promise I’m sorry but the bets way to cure yourself is with cries
Let your soul speak don’t hide it within your eyes

I want my mommy
I need my daddy
but neither can hear my cries.
The room is too dark.
For some reason i can't speak.
My hands feel tied,
can't move them or my feet.
Chills run rampant
through my small frame.
I fear what is ahead,
will I see my family again?

footsteps...,
footsteps...,
back and fourth.
Louder...,
quieter...,
and then louder again.
Shadows
come and go,
mumbling barely heard,
a twist of the door knob,
a rush of wind through my hair
my voice returns only
to scream them away.
Instead, the sound from me
is muffled, silenced,
and i can no longer scream
can barely breath,
no longer see.
terror has finally taken hold of me!

What then happened?

movements heard,
mumbling returns.
on my left..,
now my right...,
a touch on my arm
i jump in fright.
Feeling the bed sink
a presence felt next to me
whispering,
calling out to me.

i turn
exhale as best i can.
shake my head in disbelief
While a calm fear
overpowers me.

why?
are you hear to save
or hurt me
why you,
why me?
Is this a lesson
you're trying to teach me?
Do my parents know?
trying to force
words through the
nasty taste in my mouth
I can't breath anymore
a sudden smell takes over me
i feel myself
drifting away
am i dying
going to sleep?

I hear him speak
"I knew you were the one"
and then...,
There is nothing.

There comes a day of terror that invades the interior
Dramatic situations cause hysteria
Delirium can overrun the mysterious
Circumstance and no chance to be clear from
Open your mind and heart
Allow yourself to see
Be free
You survived,
But I need to give you something from me
Breathe….

To Be Continued…

A special thanks to Kiexiza Tashua Rodriquez